New Year New You

Posted by samantha covington on

Starting Fresh
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Starting a New Year can mean so many different things...  Before Covid hit...  did a New Year really mean much to you?  Do you create resolutions?  Make a word?  Do you have more hope now in a New Year because of Covid?  Do you view a New Year differently now because of Covid?
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I always start a New Year off, decluttering my house.  I am in no way a hoarder.  If I don't use it or want it, I get rid of it!!  In fact, I have a Facebook group just for selling my home items... its bad lol.  I go through my house, room by room and throw away and sell.  Its SOO refreshing to me...  I hate clutter.  I am also a minimalist I thrive off of less is more.  I haven't always been like this but in the last couple of years I have really got into the whole minimalist movement.  I'm here for it.  (I feel like becoming a minimalist needs to become a blog post)
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I also start a New Year off with a word.  This will be my 3rd year doing this.  My first year my word was Fearless.  I faced lots of challenges and decisions that year so that word really fit my world at that time.  My 2nd year (last year) my word was brave.  I still faced some of the same challenges as the year before, just in a different way.  I had to be brave in those fearless decisions I had made the year before.  Those went hand in hand looking back.
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This year, 2021, my word is intentional.  What a powerful word, intentional. 
"Dictionary definition:  done on purpose; deliberate."  
To be intentional can mean so many different things.  You can be intentional with your time, your money, gifts, words..  I think, for me, trying to be intentional with all aspects is what I will strive on but really focusing on the time, money, gifts and words.
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Now that I don't have the shop, I will try to be more intentional with my time and how its spent.  Is what I am doing right now worth it, in the end?  Is my time spent being purposeful towards myself and others?  Are my kids benefitting from my time?  Time is something I have struggled with for about 4 years..  the shop took a mental strain on my time and well being.  I was always gone and when I wasn't gone, I was busy playing catch up on on-line orders.  I had no other time.  No time for service, kids, Church, me time, friend time...  I am taking advantage of my "extra" time and coming out with new items for my shops and spending more time with those around me. 
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Being intentional with money is something I struggle with.  I try to be, but I fail all the time....  I grew up with money.  My parents worked hard, had great careers and provided for us greatly.  Sometimes, that's hard to not have so I struggle.  I will say, becoming a minimalist has really helped me overcome some money challenges.  Trying to be more intentional with where our money is going is something I am truly going to strive for this year.  My hubs and I view money and its intentionality very different (I will blog on this later).  Trying to switch my mindset into being intentional on where dollars are going is something I need to do for my marriage.
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Gifts.  This is honestly where I got my word of the year was through, thinking of gifts.  In specific, gifts for my older child...  His needs have changed over the years and I felt as though, really thinking about his gifts and being intentional with what we bought him was key this year.  I will carry that through now, to all gifts I give throughout the year and to everyone I gift too.  You can give a gift that's easily forgotten or you can be intentional and really think about it, and its so much more rewarding.  Just like my socks and cherries blog post.  It wasn't big, expensive, fancy.. but it was something that I looked forward to every year.  My parents were always intentional with being sure that was in my stocking for me every Christmas morning.   
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Words.  Sometimes my words serve no purpose or meaning.  I say things I don't mean and I hurt people with my words.  I "think out loud" often and I shouldn't.  See, my mom taught me to not sugar coat things and being straight forward is always the way to be.  I agree with this 100% but still also feel as though you can do this and still be intentional.  Its a major work in progress for me.
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Financially our small business struggled, but luckily, we were able to close our shop and just stick to online sales.  We still struggled though...  The shop for 3 years was our primary source of income.  I started to sub in my kiddos school district in January to off-set that money but... as we know, in March, schools closed.  It was hard.  My hubs was laid off, I was laid off, Etsy was so slow.  People were afraid to spend money on unnecessary things.  They were worried about what's next... they were busy spending extra money on necessities than home décor.  We struggled, but we made it.  Our final numbers are in for the year and its the worst year we have had since we started Pixie Dust in 2005.  Not cool.  Since we weren't a W2 business, meaning no "employees" we didn't qualify for grants or help.  The "employees" that I had at the shop were there very minimally and weren't W2 paid as they didn't meet the requirements.  In the fall is when we started to notice the change and people starting to online shop again.  It was a long spring and summer but... we did it and we aren't nearly as bad off as some other online retailers.  So thankful for the shop closing.  
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Mentally, it was such a challenge.  I was in go-go-go-go mode constantly.  I didn't stop.  I was either in my car, at the shop or at home pumpin' out orders.  There was no middle ground for me.  I found it hard just to hault that lifestyle.  For the 1st week I took advantage of doing nothing but then I missed my everyday grind and hustle.  I felt as though I lost a little bit of myself.  But.. we started to remodel our house and that really helped with keeping me busy, and helped me to pass the time when we literally were stuck inside our houses.  I now, actually like the slower pace of life and it would be hard to go back to "the grind" like I was doing before.  Overall, I think 2020 was great for me to mentally, to look at my life and see adjustments that were made for the better.  Realizing that time is a gift and taking a slower pace isn't a bad thing and doesn't make me any less "successful".  I just do more work from my home and I'm cool with that.  
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Physically, 2020 was the hardest on me.  I have gained so.much.weight.  SOO MUCH WEIGHT!!  Being on the go and grind has some perks, your body is always moving...  When you are sitting at home and not moving your body constantly, it catches up you.  If I were in my 20s I could have gotten away with it...  In my middle 30s that's not happening.  I still have the weight, I'm not one for exercise and working out...  I did buy spankx though to suck it all in, when the world needs to see me :)  Maybe once we can get out for good, go to the zoo, do things normally, I can shed a few pounds... maybe.  But for now, I am starting to embrace my curves and learning that, as I get older, my body changes and so does its needs.  I gain weight now, when in my 20s I was never above 130.  2020 taught me that, even with curves you can find cute clothes and they may even look better!  
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Emotionally everything was a rollercoaster!  My husband and I hadn't spent that much time together in years.  Literally years.  It was a struggle at first...  We were, in a way, figuring out how to co-exist again.  When we had the shop, I would come home and he would leave for work.  We would tag team the kids and it just worked for us.  I came, he left and vice-versa. This was our life for almost 4 years.  Then...  March hit and and we were thrown into this world of marriage again.  In April, we started remodeling the house and it gave both of us something to do.  Something to put time and energy into.  It was what we both needed.  A purpose for our time.  It really helped us emotionally.  We aren't lazy people and aren't ones to sit around and there was a lot of that for a few weeks.  We got a little grumpy and when we started remodeling our time felt purposeful and our butts weren't sore from sitting on the couch as much. 
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Emotionally, we made the best of it...  Tried to keep our kids busy and keep them protected but have them to understand why we weren't seeing other people or leaving the house was hard.  They were just as much emotionally impacted as we were, if not more so.  Our oldest is still not in school, we chose at home learning for him and only let him play with a select few kids.  They haven't been in a store in almost a year... its hard on them.  But... We do game nights, yoga, movie nights, crafts and just try to make the most of it.  
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A New Year can be scary for some... the unknown of what's ahead...  It can also be very exciting and welcoming for some...  The thrill of what's ahead in a New Year.   2020 was a hard year for SO many...  Financially, mentally, physically, emotionally....  It was hard.  Some harder than others.  We found more time to do things around the house, more cuddles, reading, movie watching and organizing than we ever thought possible.  I actually didn't think 2020 was "the worst year ever" but... I have faced so much in my life...  2020 was, for me, not even close to my worse year ever.  I hope, if you were severely impacted in 2020, 2021 is your redemption year.  I pray you come out on top of everything you were dealt.  I hope your kids well being is in a better state and that, we as a world, can get back to a sense of normalcy soon.
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Thanks for reading friends.  I would love to hear your resolutions or words for the year ahead.  I hope this year brings you health and happiness.  
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XO friends,
Sam C.

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